Monday, October 25, 2010


It’s like more than half a year since my retirement from government service. I had always enjoyed working in JKR. Had good and friendly colleagues and bosses too.
I thank God for my family, friends, job, everything …….. Everything I have is from Him – the very air I breathe. That’s why I give thanks daily. I don’t know why but my heart just can’t stop giving thanks. Thank you Lord!

Reflecting on the past certainly bring back wonderful, wonderful memories. My lovely beloved children. Hmmmmm……….. Thank you Lord again. They are about the most wonderful gifts to me. They were once just a bundle – so cute and small. But now all have grown into adults, having their own lives living apart from us parents. I am happy and sad at the same time. But I am thankful how God has been with them. Thank you Lord.

My second child invited me for a holiday with her for two weeks. Those were just wonderful time with her. Thank you Lord. You are the one who made it possible. But I also want to thank my child for this holiday she had planned for me. By the grace of God, I travelled on the same flight back with her colleague. Coincidence? I thank God once again for I know He had walked every step with me and even provided me a chaperone. A chaperone who told me how my child loved me so much to sacrifice some of her own holidays that she might save for my holidays. Tears welled up in my eyes – tears of joy and thankfulness. Thank you my lovely child and thank you Lord!

My prayer , O Lord is continue to guard our hearts and give us faith that this family will always love you, do our best to you for you have given us Your best.

Thursday, May 13, 2010

Growing Deeper In Love With My Beloved Spouse

With 5 growing children in the family, I confess that I sometimes do not have much time for my beloved husband.

Balancing between career, children, husband, church and housework did really spread my time thin. But it was really good to be busy. Through it all, I have learned to treasure the 24 hours of each day. It amazes me how much we can do each day if time is well managed. The moments of fellowship with children and spouse were much treasured and appreciated.

Today, all my children are not with me. It is not that I am sad. I am happy for them for what they are doing in their lives today. I have chosen early retirement from government service to help my husband in his business. It's really quite exciting. There are many new things to learn. Sometimes I can be quite lost but I am enjoying this new 'adventure'. It is good to be always calling and asking of the Lord for guidance, knowledge, wisdom, etc., etc. Things are anticipated to become more hectic when the factory starts operation. So, God grant me strength.

With the absence of our beloved children, there is nobody else but both of us, husband and wife. So, we now have more time for each other. We sort of purposed and pledged to love and care for each even more than before. Amazing! The love grows stronger and deeper. Why? It is because we know there is nobody else but both of us to spend the golden years together. We either choose to treasure and love each other or become impatient with each other.

We pray God will bond us in His love that this marriage will glorify Him. Even as I write this, I know out there are my 5 lovely children who will always love us and care for us.

Thank you, my Almighty God. I love you always, my LORD!

Monday, January 18, 2010



I give thanks to God. By His miracle, I have managed to balance between work and bringing up my five lovely children. They are fine children. I give all glory to God. It has always been their Heavenly Father who has guided them, loved them and nurtured them.

“Only be careful, and watch yourselves closely so that you do not forget the things your eyes have seen or let them slip from your heart as long as you live. Teach them to your children and to their children after them.”

I watched closely as I walk with God. He is love, compassion, grace and mercy. He is Almighty, Holy, Glorious. He has given me His best! I am overwhelmed – so unworthy yet loved, forgiven and reconciled to Him. Will this love ever slip from my heart?

No! I have to teach them to my children when I sit at home and when I walk along the road, when I lie down and when I get up. “Come, my children, listen to me; I will teach you the fear of the LORD. Serve Him faithfully with all your heart; consider what great things he has done for you. For the eyes of the LORD are on those who fear him, on those whose hope is in his unfailing love. The angel of the LORD encamps around those who fear him, and he delivers them. As a father has compassion on his children, so the LORD has compassion on those who fear him. The fear of the LORD is the beginning of wisdom; all who follow his precepts have good understanding.”

I did not do much except teach them what God instructed. I pray that God will give them faith and obedience so that they will not depart from His Word - the lamp to their feet and a light to their path.

“For I know the plans I have for you, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, but to give you hope and a future.”

Indeed, these five children are Yours. Thank you for your plans to prosper them and not to harm them but to give them hope and a future. Your word comforts me and I’ll keep it in my heart. What a wonderful thought to start this new year!

A happy and blessed new year!

Monday, September 21, 2009

Do what we can!

I have to get use to the quietness and emptiness. It's a week of farewell. I sent off Serena on 15/9 and Adeline on 17/9 at KLIA. Edwin went back to Singapore the following day.

As a mother looking back, I am so happy. My five wonderful children moving on with God at the centre of their lives. Amazing! God has been so good. I just cannot stop thanking Him and just want to say, "I love You, God! Thank you."

I just taught the Youth of the church on the topic "Do what we can". Reflecting, I believe this is just what I have been teaching my children all this while. Use what abilities we have & not fret / complain over the ones we do not have and focus upon what we can do & not upon what we can't do. The most important is giving our utmost for the Highest. Do we UNDERSTAND what God expects in regard to our abilities? He has given us His best, so what is our response to His love???

For if the willingness is there, the gift is acceptable according to what one has, not according to what he does not have(2 Corinthians 8:12). Let's not be ashamed of even the smallest ability God has given us. We have to believe He knows what is best for us. We must use our abilities no matter how small. We can ALL do something! Each one will have to give an account of himself to God one day. Will He be able to tell us 'Well done, good and faithful servant!' Or 'You wicked, lazy servant!'.

To my dear children and Youth, let us do everything as with the ability which God supplies, that in all things God may be glorified through Jesus Christ, to whom belong the glory and the dominion forever and ever. Amen.

Love you and God bless all of you!

Tuesday, June 23, 2009


Who am I? That the Lord of all the earth, would care to know my name, would care to feel my hurt.
Who am I? That the bright and morning star, would choose to light the way, for my ever wandering heart.

Who am I? That the eyes that see my sin would look on me with love and watch me rise again.
Who am I? That the voice that calmed the sea, would call out through the rain, and calm the storm in me.


Not because of who I am, but because of what you've done.
Not because of what I've done, but because of who you are.

I am a flower quickly fading, here today and gone tomorrow,
A wave tossed in the ocean, a vapor in the wind.
Still you hear me when I'm calling, Lord, you catch me when I'm falling,
And you've told me who I am. I am yours.

I love this song. I find my worth in knowing that I belong to God. My greatest comfort is knowing that He loves me.

A letter to Whom I belong.

My dearest God,

When I am in the midst of the multitude, I am just like a grain of sand on the sea shore. I am just another person, another number. I thank you God for knowing me by name. You make me so special.

When loved ones, friends, colleagues even strangers hurt me leaving my heart sometimes shattered … Thank you God for you feel my hurt. I surrender these hurts to you. I just want to be in your embrace, where you are my comforter, my refuge. I have great comfort in knowing that You love me.

When I am lost and confused by the concerns of life – Thank you God for being my Light. Hold me by my hands and lead me through this life. Guard my heart from the distractions of this world that I may not wander from You. Be my guide, my teacher, my counselor.

I confess I have grieved you in so many ways, falling so short of your glory. I cannot hide anything from you. Thank you God for even as your eyes see my sin, you would still look on me with love and help me and watch me rise again.

I confess You are the Sovereign Lord and I enthrone You in my heart. When anxieties fill my heart, may You - the voice that calmed the sea, call out through the rain, and calm the storm in me.

All these are possible because of what you've done and because of who you are. You have died on the cross, that your blood may wash away my sins. And You are my Lord, my God, my Savior.

I am a flower quickly fading, here today and gone tomorrow, a wave tossed in the ocean, a vapor in the wind. Still you hear me when I'm calling, Lord, you catch me when I'm falling, And you've told me who I am.

I AM YOURS….. so comforting and assuring. In You will I trust. Give me faith that I may please You. Give me obedience to obey Your commands and precepts. Give me believe that I may always wait upon You with great expectations of all Your promises which are good for me. I call out to you - My Lord, my God.

Thank you, my Lord.


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